What??

It's been awhile huh? The reason I don't really wanna touch my blog is because I always end up blogging about something emo so i get really really~~~~ Frustrated that i stopped blogging for quite... awhile! But hey! I'm back! =D So what if it's an emo post? or is it sucky? I don't give a shit xD (From Walter in Jeff dunham's puppet show)

Looking back in the past... I had been a wimp and coward who tried so hard to escape from what i lost.
I... want to believe what I lost is not a big deal...
I... want to isolate myself from all that i believe...
I... want to sleep and never wake up...(I still want this to happen though xD)
I... happen to believe I've lost my world when i see her leaving...
There's just too many...

As I grow older as day passed, months flew, years... haven't pass yet (xD), I see things differently, i take actions i did not expect i would...

All i want to say is that, memories are a binding, a lock and might be a useless piece of junk BUT! It doesn't mean we should lie to ourselves! Be honest with yourself.(I'm gonna be okay~ Gonna be okay~ -2PM's without you)I... Tried looking back into the pass... It was sweet, It was fun, It was... lovable because there was love...

It really depends on how you take love and define them...
Love = money?
Love = sex?
Love = sacrifices?
Love = tools?
Love = Ideal Partner/ companionship
Love = What? xD

Lovers are not friends.. You cannot tell yourself, "The more the merrier!" and get a new gf/bf as soon as you break up(If you are that particular someone doing that... FUCK YOU).*coff*ok... If you have someone you REALLY love, you just need that particular someone! Theoni1(mak wen.. Don't sue me k? xD) I have seen too much... Couples been together... Couples breaking up... I'm thinking... Is this a joke or what? Having relationship that can't last for a month? a week? a day? If you're not sure about you feelings just tell him/her! It is seriously a waste of time if you have no feelings towards him/her.

In my entire life(I'm only 18 =D),
1)My family
2)A random girl
3)My Ex
These people are the1 I love and Loved... Well...
My family is still in my top priority though I'm sort of cool and doesn't talk much about them but i do care!
Random girl... Now this gives a sort of a blury memory, all i remembered was she was my first love(a puppy love i think).
My ex... I don't really wanna talk much about this... Not when i'm ready! There's too much regrets, too much memories... and too much love... even now.. although i said something about hating her... But there's a saying, "You hate that someone because you love her" Right?

What if there's regret? We have to move on right? The time will not stop for you... For this instance, I just wanna finish my SAM and have a long rest!
Love life? 我不是不爱，只是“她”还没出现而已。=D