爱情

爱情就像一场舞会，教会你最初的舞步的那一个未必能陪你走到散场。。。
爱情就像听音乐，遇到好听的就一直单曲重播，一秒也不想停下来。
而如今却只能随机播放，直到遇到下一首能让我心动的旋律。。。
记得曾经对她说，等她是一件幸福的事。
可是有时候，无结局的等待让人心碎。。。
这世上最累的是眼睁睁看着自己的心破碎了却还要自己动手把它粘回原形。
我不等了，因为我学会了放手。。。
放手。。。
你不说一声就离开了。。。
但你却忘了，让你飞翔的是我爱你的方式。。。
我的眼泪。。。 落在你看不到的角落。
于是，我们的距离就像我们一起看日落的影子。。。被拉长了。。。
曾经尝试逃出你所设下的阴影。。。
走了很久才发现。。。原来我一直在都走不出那黑暗的迷宫。
偶尔会不小心触碰到伤口时，我会小声的哭泣。。。
我选择了逃避。。。用尽美丽的童话来掩饰你给过我的那些丑恶的谎言。
我催眠自己，因为我承受不起那伤害。。。
我的梦想与希望都活在过去，因为现实的生活里，你已经离我而去。。。
你给过我的回忆，我一直都藏在我心里，偶尔拿出来重温。。。
很愚蠢的，
每天都在你看不到的角落默默的关心着你。。。
对你其实我还很在意。。。可是我明白，那已经是过去了。。。
我很清楚，以后，我们的生命线再也不会遇到交叉点。。。
两条不碰面的地平线，只能隔着远方看你了。。。
终究，我们成了彼此的路人甲。
分手后的我们并不能成为朋友因为彼此都受过伤害。。。
不能做敌人因为我们曾经深爱过对方。。
所以，我们成为了最熟悉对方的。。。 陌生人。。。

说真的，我很恨你。。。但我更狠自己，恨自己为何那么的爱你。。。
你离开了我的怀抱，走向了他的世界里。。。
我从来就没有怪过你，因为我深知你已经不爱我了。
我一直都保持沉默，因为不想你走了以后对我还有什么眷恋。。。
我不出声不代表我不关心你。。。
我保持沉默并不是我不爱你。。。
我想你一直都误解了。。。
到最终你也无法看透我对的所说的一切。。。

失去你却让我重新的找回了那些失去的友情。
可怜的你，到如今也未发现别人对你的不满。
你就幸福的活在你认为可靠的怀抱吧。。。 XXX

Finally!

It has been so long since my last post huh? I'm really busy after my last post and I don't really have to mood to stay up at night to blog... But now it's FINALLY my holiday! Yea! Haha! Well, as most people knew... I'm a taylorian who took on SAM(South Australian Matriculation)! It's a really hard programme actually... Suffer from assignment, assesment, and many other stuff! Sigh!

Today is CHEE KOK TONG punya birthday! Haha! I bring him to leisure mall along with dilun and carvin to celebrate with him! It's kinda fun! I have my starbucks there too! WhOA! Now i really felt that the saying is really correct, Different people according to different mood make a different taste for the food or drink! I tasted a different caramel machiatto in leisure mall! The taste I wanted! Haha! It's really statisfactory for me!

Herm... In the afternoon, I was baking with mak wen... Well, We actually plan on baking 3 different stuff. But it turns out tht oni 1 is edible... zzz! 1st failure in my baking... Really upset! Haihz! Must work harder loh! =D

I think this is all for today lah! SURIAN!! IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL TMR!! YEA!!! =D

音乐盒～

我说人啊～在拥有了感情的时候，很多不同的情感都会忽然的产生了出来。
我呢，在我这一生人之中只谈过一次恋爱，是认认真真的爱过了一名女孩哦！
我爱得并不华丽也不精彩，只是那是你，所以我努力的爱，
对了！就好象加了糖以后的咖啡似的。
咖啡豆本身是一种又甘又苦的果实，在进过某种加工后才变成如今的咖啡！
如果我是纯咖啡的话，那你就是我的糖了！真是完美的组合啊！哈哈。。。

可惜啊，那完美的组合无法长存。我们的幸福也是如此吧！说真的，好遗憾啊。
在我结束了我们一段连锁的同时，我一直的祝福着你，祈祷你找得到你所需要的快乐。
没有了你的日子真的很难熬，只是你看不见的并不代表它不存在！
在那难熬的夜晚，我一直祈祷着能在某天能在与你成为好朋友，好知己，好情人...
我是真心的期待的。只是她早就选择了离开，我... 还能说些什么了呢？

爱一个人无罪，被爱的人也是无辜的。难道不是吗？
我知道如今说什么都已来不及了，所以我也不会去说明。
总觉得这次你转身比上一次快，快得我都来不及留住你了。
得知你已接受了他以后，我的世界崩溃了。
我恨，恨自己不够勇敢，恨自己无法挽留你，恨自己一直在难过...

在那天起，我决定了磨灭对你的眷恋。开始了磨灭这一切。。。
因为你给的一切如今对我来说是多么的刺眼。
选择与谁共度一生是你的权利，我是无法干涉的。
只是，请你不要为了自己的面子而在别人面前中伤我，
因为我从来不怪你选择离开我而和他在一起。

我想我会好好继续写完我们的爱，如果你只是想旅行，累了随时可以回来。
不管以后有什么困难，若想到我，你会知道我会一直站在这里...
还记得说过，当我们都在同时看见时钟里出现 11.11 或 其他相同的号码的话，这就说明了...
我们彼此的心都是相连的，心都是彼此想着对方的。
我都看见了那些号码了，那你呢？

在我心里永存留着我们的回忆，感觉就像音乐盒似的。每当打开回忆包厢就会弹起美妙的旋律，以动人的音乐描述了我们之间已结束的爱情。你无法爱我，我理解。所以我不告而别，但在我心里，我是那么的爱着你，即使你看不到了。

还记得我送给你的音乐盒吗？原本我是打算为你凑集十首情歌的音乐盒才送你那第一个音乐盒的，
可是我已经没那个机会了... 对不起，请原谅我的执著以及给过你的伤害。

如果你看到了我所写的一切的话，请你记住。即使你已不爱我了...我一直都是那么的爱着你，将来也会是一样的。

Frustration

I have been thinking about my life lately. Everyone have their own purpose of living and fight for it... What is mine then? I was once a nerd who know nothing about life and all I did was nothing! Then move on to my high school's life, I have met different kind of peoples and all of them are great in their very own way. What is mine then? I always want to be in the centre of attention but I always end up been left behind. What is it that I'm looking for?

There's about four friends that I have met that changes my life.

Firstly, James is my very first friend that show how much a friend can mean! He cares listens to me when I hide myself in some dark corners. He led me to find my love and show me that love isn't something that scary. Eventually, I turn out to get in a relationship with some girl because of this friend! Haha! It's kinda weird but he turns out differently nowadays but I will not hesitate to say that he is a good friend to me.

Secondly, It is my Ex-girlfriend. Back then, we were in the same class and were like best buddies. We chat every night when we get the chance to do so. At that moment, I began to think that there is actually girl who care about me. It's not very long until I realize that both of us have the same feeling towards each other. We began our relationship after a year we met. She has been a very caring and loving girlfriend. She has even show me a way of life. Life where I feel that I'm finally resting. We share the same interest, hobbies, and love... Everything turn out perfectly until I realized that she was suffering because of my naiveness. I began to be so upset and eventually broke up with her. It was a very hard decision and I couldn't sleep just thinking about that. There's no doubt that she changes me the most and is the person I appreciate the most. After quite some months, We began to talk to each other once more and I thought that we might be ready to start all over again but I was wrong after all. When she suggested to give her some time to think about it, I did. But when I called her to give me some time till SPM is over, She just walk away with some guy. Seriously, I was hurt badly. Just some girls I fall deeply with. Life? *sigh*

Lastly, It's Mak wen and di lun. Well, They appear into my life quite late as compare to the 1st and 2nd but they are also my good friends. Haha! We have been through so many things and I never wanted to let our bonds end! I have lost 1 who I appreciate the most, I didn't want to lost you guys anymore. Just promise me that we will keep in touch ya!

Why am I standing on this earth? Why am I blogging here in this cyber world? Why? Why? Why?

Education? Entertaiment? Food?

People always said, " I make the world different!" Well, Sad to say this but you ARE wrong! It is the world who makes you different! What is your life, how will you live has all been fixed! People always say, "Fight for something you really want!" I have fight for it but what do I get? ANSWER ME! What have I archive this far? What have I DONE SO FAR?

Life? *laugh* What a joke! Ok... I really need to chill right now... Bye blogspot!

Life on 26th febuary!

It's getting late but I'm still on for this blog! Haha! I am so sure i'm going to blog often! Well, I was actually planning to start my blog at 10pm+ but i got invited by my uncle to eat dinner with him and his family! It is very unpolite to turn him down so I accept his offer and went with KokTong(The main reason of why i'm going!) We have our dinner and went to Yam Cha after that!

Haha! I woke up kinda late today and I believe it's will still go on because I sleep late =P Before I move on what happen this morning, I'll start with what happen in 5.30am of the day. Apparently, I didn't switch off my alarm which is suppose to wake me up on weekdays! When I heard the annnoying alarm(ARHHHHH!), I woke up and start find my phone but I could't find it! After that, I was so supprise to found it at the floor! After I switched it off, I thought for quite a few SECONDS, I just left it that way and went back to sleep(HAHAHA)!

Ok! This is what happen this morning, I was right infront of my computer and doing some random stuff then KokTong stand beside me and ask whether I want to go down to have our brunch! I was looking at him then he said, " I'll paid for you, So where do you want to eat?" I was so shocked that he said so! Then he told me that he won quite a fortune in Hanyang's house yesterday(what a lucky guy!) So we went for chicken rice at shoplot just down our house! =)

Nothing really happen this afternoon, Just watch some movies like On His Majesty Service, Mission Impossible etc..... Haha~ O yea! I did read about something about coffee! I read it in starbucks official website! It's kinda fun for me SINCE I got so addicted to their coffee lately! Haha! I checked the utensil and some coffee stuff. Their price is like WOOOOAAAAHHHH!! It's all like 499+ US dollar! >< How I wish I can get 1 and start to make my own coffee without spending too much in starbucks! =(

Well, I think thats just all for today! It's really getting late now! I'll just stop my blog here for TODAY! Haha! By the way, I think I really need to thank James and Agnes here! Thank you both for talking to me! It really meant alot for me especially when people care about me! =)

My day begins with Starbucks~

Starbucks... Starbucks... STARBUCKS!!!! I have got addicted to coffee lately! Before I have i class early in the morning, I went to starbucks to get myself a cup of coffee(Caramel Macchiato)! It is very early and I was the only customer they have! How awesome! In the meanwhile, I sent greeting sms to James, KahJun and Agnes! They sound like they were having their lunch but they called me! I was so suprised that Agnes called me as well! Haha! Didn't see that coming! By the way, I used the tumbler I found in my house and I paid Grande size coffee for the price lower than the regular size! Cool~~~



It is class as usual until lunch has come about! Wooo~ Starving! I joined some of my classmates to AsiaCafe to have lunch and i ordered fried chicken rice! I just like crispy chicken! I get my another starbucks drink so that I can keep myself awake for my tests today and I ordered Cafe Latte(Taste great~)! <3 After the lunch, I was so excited about the Chemistry and English test! Haha! I messed up my time during English test! I repeat the whole essay after I notice I have crapping nonsense and as results... My hands are hurt =( Next on! Chemistry test! Haha! I was like so surprised I kinda know what it is writing! Well, I didn't know if I can score well but definitely not going to be bad! =)

After the last chemistry test, my classmates decided to have some fun in Sunway Pyramid~ Woooo! It's funny how they arrange the where they should sit in 3 cars( My Babe<3, Vios and Saga) Haha! It's a lucky thing that I haven't leave the college JUST YET! If not Joe Ian and KC will have to walk their way to sunway =( Be thankful guys!

We went in to sunway to watch Book of Eli!! It is a nice movie where it takes place in a ages when Civilizations were destroyed after a very terrible war. There's this guy, Eli who firstly tell others he is just a nobody, carries the last Bible in the earth and headed west. He said that he heard sounds which leads him to the last bible and asked him to travel to the west where the book will be safe! He travelled for 30 winters(which is 30years) and faces his last difficulty! This movies actually thaught us somehow to worship the god! Believe in them and keep faith! Well, quite meaningful!

After the movie, Me, Joe Ian, Edward, Chee Wai, JJ, Khim, and KC(he went back early though) went to fishmarket to have our dinner! It's so damn statisfy!

Trust me! It taste great and fill you tummy!



Excitement goes on after dinner! Well, everyone are full and lazy to move around but endward is so desperate to ply bowling so we follow him to the centre... Well, when you are destined not to have something... You wouldn't have it! Haha! There's only free lane after 10.30pm -.-'' So we move on to archery instead! Haha! the 2nd time! =) It's fun! Haha



Everything has finally come to an end after archery! After the goodbye with JoeIan, Edward Sham, Mervin, and JJ, I drove Chee Wai, Eng Khim and YiHui back to Subang Jaya! Haha! The funny part is the moment while fetching YiHui home! I thought I was suppose to get her back to her apartment as near as possible( It's not really safe to travel around at night!) but she called me to drop her in the middle of the road where she can goes to the shop there! I don't ask what she wants since she didn't really want to tell! =) It's 9.15pm whn I leave subang Jaya and enter NPE! Haha! It takes me 20 minutes to come home! Yea! Haha!

Happy moment, happy memories and happy STARBUCKS! =)

The 1st time! and some random stuff!

Oh well... Bloggin has been so famous lately, so I can't really resist it and get myself a blog! =)
How rude of me for not introducing myself! I'm Kang yi, going to turn 18 in like... few days time! You guys can also call me bryan which some of my college classmate do so! I'm not actually the social guy but i'm a good listener! =) If u guys ever want to find someone to talk to, I'm available!! By the way. I love sports! I've interest myself and get myself involve into different kind of sports! For example, Volleyball, basketball, football(don't really play much though), badminton and etc. I've also joined some martial arts club like Karate-do, Judo and lately, I joined a street defensive art club called Jujitsu! I'm also capable of doing some handworks like origami! It's a really good hobby where you twist a plain square paper into something really amusing!

It's like a few days before my birthday but I don't really feel the excitement! Well, I believe it's because I don't celebrate it! Haha! It's my 18 birthday! I'm going to 18!!! The stage where i finally reach... Somehow legal age(for myself of cz). I was wondering what i can do on my birthday but i realize that there are test test and TEST around my birthday! 1st march, test, 2nd march, TEST, 3rd march, TEST AGAIN!! Where is the life! ><

The days in college are like the same throuhout the WEEK! Can you believe that? In the morning, i'll drive my cousin(Ng zhan yang) to school and then go to my college! After some hours of attending reapeated subjects EVERYDAY, I have my lunch with my classmates! After that, finish my college hours in about 3-4pm. Then I'll drive back to house and start spacing off @.@ I did not notice any different! Not only that! Assignment and test are in the air! As brandon said, Studying= no life! Seriously, If It's possible... I think i'll make an equation out of it! Proof that, study is equal/proportional to lifeless! How cool would it be!!! Haha!

I've been chatting with james(my buddy!) just now. I was like so furios to heard from him that "some1" said i gave up on her and start to ignore her back then! Just what the hell she thinks she is saying? I've never said or did something like that BEFORE! Now she made up her own story and is like having her sweet time with HER NEW SPECIAL SOMEONE! My friend really said you correctly! Hypocrites! I don't blame you misunderstanding me and get on a new life! But when you made up stories! It just make me feel insulted and hurt! I don't care who the hell will read this and tell her! Just do it! I'll be more than happy if you do!

I think that's about it for today! Better get myself cool down and ready for chemistry test and english test tomorrow!